Adoption the beginning of my journey
THE BEGINNING JOURNEY
A family to call my own the beginning
the beginning journey everyone starts somewhere.
Welcome to confessions of a ragdoll it all starts with memories of the mind some good some bad but they all make up who I am and how I have got to where i have …..
.I will start with my place of birth I wasn’t born welsh I was born in Brebury Stockport it’s wasn’t an easy up bringing but enough of the negativity here is truly warm memorable moment.
I trembled with the excitement of anticipation, as I knew this was going to be it, I had waited years to call someone a family of my own. My social worker used to tell me, that’s she would walk around ringing a bell looking for a family for me to share. This was never a bad experience just the fact I was going to be so lucky and finally have a family almost the feeling of a full stocking on Christmas day, now for a poem to show exactly how that little girl was feeling
A family to share .
Excitement grew in the pit of my tummy.
I knew it was time to have new mum and dad .
Flowers were exchanged and sad goodbyes.
Tears flooded my foster carers eyes.
I knew being only six , A new journey had begun .
As my sister's sat in the car with me , I knew chapter had started.
And never again would we be parted.
In the flashes of a moving car , trees flew by blended into the day sky.
Time ticked by , the cassette player played.
Excitement turned into nervous butterflies.
But a feeling of love and happiness began to grow .
The feeling of loneliness didn't show.
The more time passed .
It felt more real,
A family of my own was in my finger tips grasp .
I hoping and praying this feeling would last.
The car slowed down , to see a street sign .
Surly this wasn't mine .
It must just a dream .
Some kind joke .
I honestly felt like a could choke .
Not out of fear , sadness or loneliness.
But this new feeling of pure love and excitement.
The little red Golf , came to sudden jolt .
I felt like I could bolt .
This huge fairy tale of a home stood tall and pretty.
Truly this couldn't be mine.
My long hair bounced around.
As I jumped for joy .
I wanted to ride on my bike,
Around this huge garden like a boy.
My new parents faces so gentle and kind .
Happiness was finally mine.
No Fake smile .
Or social worker code .
I finally had a family to call my own .
I was now a lloydette
With all the love two parents could show.
I realise now how time passes by .
My mum and dad, gave my little life chance.
Something so amazing .
Not many could understand.
So next time you doubt adoption
Please surly make it an option.
As their could be another little girl out their .
Who just only wants a family to share
Leaza Jayne Lloyd