THE SECERT BATTLE WITH FOOD,
I shut my eyes and lay in bed
Today the monster is inside my head
She won’t let me, as I look at the ticking clock
She is waiting, unseen, unheard
I truly wish, I was free as a bird
But not today or tomorrow, she won't let me go
She whispers to me you reap what you sow
Day or night it’s a battle I can't win
As the monster in my head thinks food is a sin
Only very few see the silent battle that I fight
Especially as there is no end insight
Do that, do this lots of people say
But they don’t understand, she won’t go away
I am healthy she says as I go through the days
But I know the monster in my inside my head that controls what is said
No one sees the suffocation as my body hides the desperation
I sit here with silent tears and words unspoken
I am just so tired my spirit is broken
Its my mind the monster that I call she restrains
It honestly hurts so much. so much that no one sees my pain
Or the reality of my flawed brain
The secret she makes me keep
Makes me feel ashamed and weak